Showing posts with label positive. Show all posts
Showing posts with label positive. Show all posts

Saturday, 21 January 2012

2011 A Bad Boyfriend?


Hey,

How are you all? Is January treating you well? I hope so! It’s hard after Christmas, the New Year kicks in so fast it’s almost as if the festive season was mince pie filled dream!

The initial flourish of resolutions, diets and general optimism for the better person in us all, is usually starting to deplete at a rapid rate by now, but this year I feel different.

As I mentioned in my last post 2011 was a hard year for my family and there were events through the twelve months that seemed to keep pulling me down, and I felt like I was teetering on the edge of another depression bout.

Despite the usual pain I’m in, I have been suffering with hip and knee pain that wasn’t in my normal portfolio of ailments. I hit my biggest weight over Christmas and after telling a friend about these problems, she remarked that these were the pains she had whilst pregnant. Now regular readers will remember this (CLICK HERE - to read my shame!) and the remark from my niece and again it’s taken for me to be told that my body in some way relates to that of a Mum to be, before I do anything about – stupid really isn’t?

And although some months ago I declared no more diets I feel if my fat is causing more pain on top of my usual ones I would be stupid to ignore it.

I joined WeightWatchers online two weeks ago, but since Christmas I’ve lost 6lb. I’m in what you would call the honeymoon period of the diet, but that’s just it I don’t feel like I’m dieting at all, I find point counting almost fun, finding as many ways of eat as much as I can without going over my allotted points – yesterday I even had mince pie ice cream with 3 points still left over by bedtime! 


But do you know what I think I’ll succeed this time because unlike last year I only have your average run of the mill problems or worries not court cases and heartbreak. And in hard times I’m your classic comfort eater. My friends are sick of me and my weight issues but so far I cannot say a bad word about WW. 

I almost feel like 2011 was a bad boyfriend who I’ve dumped. I’m in a “New Me” phase and I’ve thrown out half my wardrobe, got a new bed and duvet sets, we’ve started preparing for a new kitchen plus I’ve got 2 hen do’s, 3 weddings, 1 holiday booked (with two more in the pipeline), a family reunion party already booked up for this year – it’s looking fun (and expensive – less money to buy junk food with I suppose!).

I hope this optimism lasts, as well as my will power, I’m sure you’ll hear all about it soon enough. What about you guys? Are we all still feeling positive and fighting off the January blues? Let me know!

Right I’m off to go count weight watchers points, I have a cupcake course on Monday I need to calculate how many points per cake I bring home, I can eat and still enjoy Nando’s tomorrow – simple things!! Will let you know how I get on.

L x

Sunday, 8 May 2011

In the words of....


Nina Simone, Muse and Michael Buble amongst many.... I’m feeling good! 363 days after the official beginning of my RSD relapse, I woke this morning with a sense of real positivity. The relapse is almost over – my longest one in 21 years with the condition. I’m just glad it wasn’t the most severe one and I’ve carried on being part of the world instead of a prisoner of my bed and home.

Although I’m never pain free, I’m so glad that I can start coming off of some of the stronger medications and will hopefully regain my mental power and energy reserves to function at a “normal” level. I just have to remember not to overdo it, I’m my own worst enemy doing too much then suffering for days after!

It couldn’t come at a better time since I’m due to volunteer with the Southend Operatic Drama Society (S.O.D.S) as a member of the front of house staff during their run of Half a Sixpence (Tickets still available!) next week.

The diet took a bit of a back burner whilst Mike was home from work, and I fully blame my no slimmer waist line on Prince William and Kate (I had to spent a full day drinking to their long and happy life.... didn’t I?) and the great UK weather we’ve been having, which subsequently meant I had to attend many Birthday BBQ’s and gatherings, with many more to come! I will however; try my hardest to be good in between socialising as I’m desperate to wear my size 12 jeans again and not offend my neighbours whilst sunbathing!

Mike has gone away for up to two months now, it hasn’t hit me yet, but when I start to cover his side of the bed in magazines, note pads and the laptop starts accompanying me to bed I know he needs to come home quick. The only plus side to my lovely boys absence is that I can really concentrate on the diet/writing/projects etc. Without feeling like I’m neglecting him! He’ll come home to a new woman or a wreck of a girlfriend who of course – over did it!

L x